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Butterfly days...

  • By girly-d
  • On 29/06/2018
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It's boiling outside...

I'm wearing a playsuit - the one that always reminds me of him. 

The one that always reminds me of me...

The me when I was happy and carefree and gave zero fucks as long as I was out with this guy and we were rocking it out like the hedonists we were back then...

I wore it to Hampton Court. We were working backstage at a gig, right after we'd been for a meal in the worst chinese restaurant in the world.

There were seven of us; Him, the roadies and me...all of us starving, all sadly destined to stay that way as we were all, without exception unable to identify, let alone eat anything at all that the waitress put in front of us...

But we had an amazing time anyway, and I took loads of photos and he and the boys played to the camera and that night will stay in my mind forever...filed under "terrible food, incredible time"... because it was.

It was the best...

Because strolling round London, hand in hand with this guy I adored, me rocking out my big hair and my playsuit and my girly, strappy sandals I looked as though I didn't have a care in the world...I looked incredible, I was with this super cool person of mine and I was living my absolute best life...

And then my life back here went horribly wrong , I fell into addiction, and that, coupled with the fact that my super-cool guy lived too far away for us to actually ever have a relationship meant that I didn't actually get to wear my playsuit again...

But I kept hold of it ...which is a tiny bit miraculous, because with everything that happened to me after that night, it's a miracle that I managed to keep hold of anything at all...

And so I put it on today...

While I sat outside in Wonderland...

And I thought about who I was back then and who I am right now...and the huge transformation that has taken place recently...turning me from  washed out caterpillar to beautiful butterfly ...

And  I realised that despite it all,  I am still her...that I'm still that foxy chick with the massive smile and the even bigger hair...just today I'm a couple of years older and ever so much wiser...sat out here in the sunshine rocking out my gorgeous girly playsuit that just happens to be completely covered in butterflies...

I don't think that my choice of outfit has ever been more fitting...